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LAST GOODBYE

We stood all alone
Waiting for this day to come
And I held you close
But I couldn't feel your pain
I didn't know
This would be the last time
This would be the last kiss
This was our goodbye
If you were letting go
I should've been the one you told
I never heard you say goodbye
And I'm sorry isn't good enough
Because lately I've been giving up
And I'm sorry isn't good enough
And your last goodbye
Made me realize
I'll be alright
How could you laugh?
How could you lie to me?
You held me close
But I couldn't feel your pain
I should've known
This couldn't last forever
The last thing I remember
Was standing all alone
If you were letting go
I should've been the one you told
I never heard you say goodbye
And I'm sorry isn't good enough
Because lately I've been giving up
And I'm sorry isn't good enough
And your last goodbye
Made me realize I'll be alright
And so suddenly
I've stopped falling down
I believe in me one more time
And I'm sorry
And I'm sorry isn't good enough
Sorry
I'm sorry
And I'm sorry isn't good enough
I'm sorry isn't good enough
I'm sorry
I'm sorry


SURROUNDED

Torn down
Trampled on
Surrounded
 Surrounded
Thrown out
Left behind
And blinded by your beauty
So if you want to believe in anything
You know that you can believe in me
Because you'll never find me in somebody else
You'll never find me in somebody else
No you'll never find me in somebody else
You better believe this much is true
Let go
All alone
I'm busted
I'm busted
Without
Torn apart
And hungry from desire
So if you want to believe in anything
You know that you can believe in me
Because you'll never find me in somebody else
No you'll never find me in somebody else
No you'll never find me in somebody else
You better believe this much is true
You better believe it's true
I will not go down
I will not go down
I'll show what you've found
I'll show you what you've found
I'll show you what you've found
You can take everything
You need from me
And you can let me be what
You're offering
But will you ever believe in me?
Because you'll never find me in somebody else
No you'll never find me in somebody else
No you'll never find me in somebody else
You better believe this much is true
Because you'll never find me in somebody else
No you'll never find me in somebody else
No you'll never find me in somebody else
You better believe this much is true
You better believe this much is true
You better believe this much is true


HAPPILY EVER AFTER

You're the one who's sorry
I'm the one who gives a damn
Happily ever after I am
I never saw you falling
Why was I the last to know?
You could have held on tighter
Instead of letting go
You said you believed in yesterday
Then why did you throw this away?
You don't need me anymore
You don't understand
Everything I am
This is what I need to be
You can run away
But you'll understand
When I find this part of me
You're the one who faltered
Is this how it had to end?
Every day I wonder
How to begin again
You said you believed in yesterday
Then why did you throw this away?
You don't need me anymore
You don't understand
Everything I am
This is what I need to be
You can run away
But you'll understand
When I find this part of me
Why did you throw this away?
How could you throw this away?
You don't need me anymore
You don't understand
Everything I am
This is what I need to be
You can run away
But you'll understand
When I find this part of me
You don't understand
Everything I am
This is what I need to be
You can run away
But you'll understand
When I find this part of me
Was it me?
I don't know


LAKE 17

Silent faces young and wasted
Looking for you now
Isolated conscience-laden
Beaten to the ground
Lost and jaded
Nothing's sacred
Watching as I drown
Bleed or swallow
Beg and borrow
Someone help me out
Lake 17 - you give me everything that I need
Lake 17 - I'm drowning but you keep on helping me breathe
Tripping blindly
Slowly climbing
Never coming down
Life below me
Flashing quickly
Somehow holding on
Lake 17 - you give me everything that I need
Lake 17 - I'm drowning but you keep on helping me breathe
Out of my mind
I'm falling deep into you
I hear your voice
Keep calling
Barely breathing
Slowly fading
Lost forever now
Lake 17 - you give me everything that I need
Lake 17 - I'm drowning but you keep on helping me breathe
Lake 17 - you give me everything that I need
Lake 17 - I'm drowning but you keep on helping me breathe
You're giving me everything that I need
I'm drowning but you keep on helping me


DUMB

Please don't be alarmed
I know I am not like you
I don't get upset
When I hear them say
The things they say about me
I don't believe everything I hear them say
I'm pretty dumb that way
Don't say you like me
I can hear you laughing
Don't say you like me this way
I can feel them stare
Even when they look away
I will not forget every time
Every time I hear the things they say about me
I don't believe everything I hear them say
I'm pretty dumb that way
If I believed
Everything I hear them say
How could I live
This way
Don't say you like me
I can hear you laughing
Don't say you like me this way
Don't say you like me
I can feel you staring at me
Don't say you like me
I can hear you laughing
Don't say you like me this way
Don't say you like me
I can feel you staring
Don't say you like me this way
Don't say you like me this way
Don't say you like me this way


STUCK
 

The way it was
The way it is
I don't think much about it
I've tried too hard
To redefine the things in life I want
If you could live inside of me
I don't think that you'd like it
You're much too late
To appreciate
Everything I have lost
I'm stuck at the heart of all oft his
I know that in time I'm the one you'll miss
And I don't give a damn what you think about
The things I've said and done
I don't give a damn what you think about
The things I have become
If I would bend I'd break in two
I rather feel unwanted
You're much too late to appreciate
Everything I've become
I've found a better place
You can't come in
So get away
I'm stuck at the heart of all of this
I know that in time I'm the one you'll miss
And I don't give a damn what you think about
The things I've said and done
I don't give a damn what you think about
The things I have become
on and on and on...
And I don't give a damn what you think about
The things I've said and done
I don't give a damn what you think about
The things I have become
And I don't give a damn what you think about
The things I've said and done
I don't give a damn what you think about
The things I have become
I don't give a damn
I don't give a damn
I don't give a damn what you think about
The things I've said and done


GIVE BACK YOURSELF

Dedicated in loving memory of Erin Keefer


I'm leaving
Throw myself around
I'm needing
This to figure out
I hear you talking to me
I'm feeling
Nothing if at all
I'm trying
It's so hard to move on when you're on your own
I see you
Even though you're not here with me
I see you
Yeah, Go on living
Always keep on breathing
From the mouth of memory
You'll give back yourself
Go on giving
Always keep on breathing
From the mouth of memory
You'll give back yourself
If I had any wish at all
I'd put you back where you belong
So you're not alone
I hear you
I hear you talking
Did you say the words I think I heard you say?
I hear you now
Yeah, Go on living
Always keep on breathing
From the mouth of memory
You'll give back yourself
Go on giving
Always keep on breathing
From the mouth of memory
You'll give back yourself
Now I wonder where you are
You left the life you've been denied
I know what you could have been
If you hadn't died
You hadn't died
Hadn't died
Hadn't died
Hadn't died
Go on living
Always keep on breathing
From the mouth of memory
You'll give back yourself
Go on giving
Always keep on breathing
From the mouth of memory
You'll give back yourself
Go on living
Always keep on breathing
From the mouth of memory


SOMEWHERE OUT THERE

You've broken down
And left behind a part of us
If I should die
Will I find something better?
Is there something better?
I've lost inside
My will to try to live forever
Will I live forever?
I know you're out there
If it's you that I need
I can't wait any longer
I know you're there
How will I know you can make me stronger?
I know you're out there
If it's you that I'll see
I can't wait any longer
I know you're somewhere out there
I've lost myself
In something else
It's obvious when I was blind
You can have tried to make it brighter
Can you make it brighter?
I know you're out there
If it's you that I need
I can't wait any longer
I know you're there
How will I know you can make me stronger?
I know you're out there
If it's you that I'll see
I can't wait any longer
I know you're somewhere out there
Can you make me stronger?
Can you make me stronger?
Will I live forever
If you make me stronger?
Are you somewhere out there?
I know you're out there
I know you're out there
If it's you that I need
I can't wait any longer
I know you're there
How will I know you can make me stronger?
I know you're out there
If it's you that I'll see
I can't wait any longer
I know you're somewhere out there
Can you make me stronger?
Can you make me stronger?


MISTAKE
 

Why am I afraid?
Maybe I should give this up
Something so sacred
Maybe I should keep untouched
I'm trying not to hate
Myself for what I love
And I cannot deny what I've become
If I could stop awhile
I'd learn how to love awhile
Something so fragile
I'm trying not to hate
Myself for what I love
And I cannot keep running from
The things I have become
I have become
You were my mistake
I was curious
I thought I'd find a way
To love someone I couldn't trust
You were my mistake
Forgive me but it's over now
I know it's time to throw this all away
So I'm looking for the things I need to save
I'm trying not to hate
Myself for what I love
I cannot keep running from
The things I have become
I have become
You were my mistake
I was curious
I thought I'd find a way
To love someone I couldn't trust
You were my mistake
Forgive me but it's over now
na-na-na...
You were my mistake
I was curious
I thought I'd find a way
To love someone, to love someone I couldn't trust
You were my mistake
Forgive me but it's over now
It's over now
It's over now


DEAD &GONE

 

Please believe me
I don't want to drag you down
But I need to take a better look
I'm tired of breathing
Everything about it wears me out
Now it's time to find a better place
Find a safer place
I just want to be left alone
What am I living for no one knows
I have lived to believe
You will walk over me
When I'm dead and gone
Please
I don't want to drive you down
But you better take a look around
And tell them what you've found
I just want to be left alone
What am I living for no one knows
I have lived to believe
You will walk over me
When I'm dead and gone
You can all walk over me
When I'm dead and gone
I just want to be left alone
What am I living for no one knows
I have lived to believe
You will walk over me
When I'm dead and gone
I just want to be left alone
What am I living for no one knows
I have lived to believe
You will walk over me
When I'm dead and gone
You think my life is full of fun games and lemonade
Turn on the daylight
You think my life is full of fun games and lemonade
Turn on the daylight
Turn on the daylight


ALL I WANT TO BE

You're what matters
All that matters
Do you understand your problem?
I've been weightless
Waiting for this
Let me be the one to help you
Over there
I see someone
Trying to hold on to what they've become
And all I want to be is here right now
All you've wanted
Lost and needed
Will be waiting here beside you
Over there
I see someone
Wanting to hold on to what they've become
And all I want to be
Is here right now
And everything to me
Is here right now
Alone
You're drowning
While I'm reaching out to you
The feeling
You're wanting
Is right there in front of you
And yesterday's promise
Don't mean a thing today
When you keep on drifting
Farther away
All I want to be
All I want to be
All I want to be
All I want to be


ASHES

I fell and watched it get away from me
And I know every reason I was left behind
The easy part was knowing
The hardest part was saying it out loud
I let you down
Ashes to ashes
You broke down and I picked up the pieces
You left here and now there's nothing left here
To remind me of you
It's all true
Far from the place I used to call my home
I celebrate this is my holiday from you
Where every thought is a moment
And every moment finds a way to fade
On this day
Ashes to ashes
You broke down and I picked up the pieces
You left here and now there's nothing left here 
To remind me of you
Ashes to ashes
You broke down and you left me to pick the pieces
And now there's nothing left here
To remind me of you
It's all true
I'm done with you